Juicier side of things......and not Juicy Couture.

Sooooo in my life right now I am stuck in what I would like to call my ummmmmm college life twilight zone.  My life is consumed with young and I mean young people most of the day, and some of these youngens are HOTT.... should I dare say.  Now I'm not saying I look at the 19 year olds, but some 22, 23 and up have come into my lil twilight zone.  Then I get the question of "how old r u anyways" after they listen to some of my "worldly adventures" lol.  At first I flat out said 30, I turned 30 in May.  But after seeing the look of bewilderment in there eyes and the NOOOO like I'm there mothers age or something, I soon just started saying either, dont worry about it or 26.  They all think I'm bout 25 -27.  I figure it cuts the conversation down by half and they will find out the truth if they hang out long enough and it wont be such an issue.  But then I came into the realization that these lil hotties actually wanted to hang out with me be my friend per say.  Now this is where the years of wisdom come into play and i'm happy to be older to know that more than likely....they want to....yes I will say it JUST have sex with me.  I guess to see if the whole Puma, Cougar thing.  I dont know, its sooooo weird! So yes, my life seems to b stuck in a twilight zone if you will.  I am 30, but of course NOTHING in my life is like i'm 30.  I am in College, have friends (youngens) calling me to go out, but my brain I guess keeps allll this in check.  I stay at home most nights and study or hang out at my house.  I guess whats weird is that sometimes it seems they dont see the age difference.  I guess because I have never been married and have no kids??  Just would seem to me that they would be like oh she older, we dont wanna hang out with her.  But oh no they are persistent, I will say. Sometimes i feel that it reminds me too much that I am older when I am sitting there listening to their life and I think ohhhhh poor baby! Dont do that or waste your time!  I have been there done that and it wasnt worth it!!!! I even was "talking" to a guy that his body was so beautiful it would make your eyes melt!  and the age thing I realized is not so much the issue, its just I have experienced more.  More heartache, more adventures, more LIFE.  It made me realize that men, boys, guys, MALES are pretty much alllll the same and its true they never grow up.  I have dated men from 38-23 now and they all seem to be the same.  Except with just more or less lines or emotional baggage.  So this semester I not only learned about books but the male species and what I learned is that I am not going to date anyone at all for awhile.  Just seems no matter who they are or what age they are,  its just not working, and for once I can say thats okay!

FREEEEDDDOOOOOMMMMMM!!!!!!! For a lil while at least!

So friends its been a long while since I last blogged.  Was a lil consumed with books and nerd life. I am proud to say I made A's & B's in all my classes!  The hardest class was my A&P and I ended up making a 83, not without much stress and extra points by making ear and eyeball models and bone models! But hey, I'll take it however I can get it!  Next semester I will be taking 14 hours. The classes I will be taking are A&P II with lab, Micro-biology with lab, nutrition and math.  Then I will apply for the LVN program in June and hopefully be accepted in the fall.  I am choosing to go this route so while I am getting my LVN clinicals I can be getting PAID!!!!! Then I will transition into my RN, which will take the same amount of time.   So that's the plan for now! 
But today I am so excited that I do not have to open a book until the 20th of January. Plus i get to come to Dallas and see allll my friends and go to Christmas parties and travel a little while on my break.  I figure as long as I can have lil breaks here and there I can handle the insanity of this goal and push to make it happen.