Juicier side of things......and not Juicy Couture.

Sooooo in my life right now I am stuck in what I would like to call my ummmmmm college life twilight zone.  My life is consumed with young and I mean young people most of the day, and some of these youngens are HOTT.... should I dare say.  Now I'm not saying I look at the 19 year olds, but some 22, 23 and up have come into my lil twilight zone.  Then I get the question of "how old r u anyways" after they listen to some of my "worldly adventures" lol.  At first I flat out said 30, I turned 30 in May.  But after seeing the look of bewilderment in there eyes and the NOOOO like I'm there mothers age or something, I soon just started saying either, dont worry about it or 26.  They all think I'm bout 25 -27.  I figure it cuts the conversation down by half and they will find out the truth if they hang out long enough and it wont be such an issue.  But then I came into the realization that these lil hotties actually wanted to hang out with me be my friend per say.  Now this is where the years of wisdom come into play and i'm happy to be older to know that more than likely....they want to....yes I will say it JUST have sex with me.  I guess to see if the whole Puma, Cougar thing.  I dont know, its sooooo weird! So yes, my life seems to b stuck in a twilight zone if you will.  I am 30, but of course NOTHING in my life is like i'm 30.  I am in College, have friends (youngens) calling me to go out, but my brain I guess keeps allll this in check.  I stay at home most nights and study or hang out at my house.  I guess whats weird is that sometimes it seems they dont see the age difference.  I guess because I have never been married and have no kids??  Just would seem to me that they would be like oh she older, we dont wanna hang out with her.  But oh no they are persistent, I will say. Sometimes i feel that it reminds me too much that I am older when I am sitting there listening to their life and I think ohhhhh poor baby! Dont do that or waste your time!  I have been there done that and it wasnt worth it!!!! I even was "talking" to a guy that his body was so beautiful it would make your eyes melt!  and the age thing I realized is not so much the issue, its just I have experienced more.  More heartache, more adventures, more LIFE.  It made me realize that men, boys, guys, MALES are pretty much alllll the same and its true they never grow up.  I have dated men from 38-23 now and they all seem to be the same.  Except with just more or less lines or emotional baggage.  So this semester I not only learned about books but the male species and what I learned is that I am not going to date anyone at all for awhile.  Just seems no matter who they are or what age they are,  its just not working, and for once I can say thats okay!

FREEEEDDDOOOOOMMMMMM!!!!!!! For a lil while at least!

So friends its been a long while since I last blogged.  Was a lil consumed with books and nerd life. I am proud to say I made A's & B's in all my classes!  The hardest class was my A&P and I ended up making a 83, not without much stress and extra points by making ear and eyeball models and bone models! But hey, I'll take it however I can get it!  Next semester I will be taking 14 hours. The classes I will be taking are A&P II with lab, Micro-biology with lab, nutrition and math.  Then I will apply for the LVN program in June and hopefully be accepted in the fall.  I am choosing to go this route so while I am getting my LVN clinicals I can be getting PAID!!!!! Then I will transition into my RN, which will take the same amount of time.   So that's the plan for now! 
But today I am so excited that I do not have to open a book until the 20th of January. Plus i get to come to Dallas and see allll my friends and go to Christmas parties and travel a little while on my break.  I figure as long as I can have lil breaks here and there I can handle the insanity of this goal and push to make it happen. 

Can you say....OVERWHELMED class???

Just letting ya know.....I am feeling a lil stressed out and overwhelmed the past 2 wks.  I feel like I would greatly benefit from tutors for alllll of my classes!  I just feel like all I do is read and nothing is sticking.  I am wondering if any of my other friends felt the same way when they started classes for R.N. I'm wondering what can I do when I study or read to retain it?  I know I'm going to be fine, but right now I just wish I was feeling a lil more confident.  I feel like my attention span is so short, I'm wishing I was as smart as Cameron right now!  He doesnt even have to worry bout school,(lil jerk!) yet here I am making note cards, reading, studying. I'm feeling really dumb, wondering what the hell I was thinking?? I mean, I have a fever blister the size of Texas on my lower lip right now, that wont go away! It's been hanging out now for about a wk and a half!  My jawline is all broke out, I cant remember a damn thing I read tonight about cellular metabolism....beside those 2 words.   Please my fellow teachers give me some advice on how to study!  Its at these times I wish I would of worked harder in school.  I pray when I have kids, they will be super smart and have a memory like a steal trap! I wish there were some vitamin I could take that would make my brain super absorbent of everything I studied!  I wish I had an assistant that would study with me everyday!  If one of you win the lottery will you buy me one?? Or better yet, I'll win the lottery and pay you to be my personal teacher!  Alls I'm saying is......I sure am feeling a lot of things and wishing a lot in this blog!!!!

I'm a school girl, with my school gear!!

Well I did it! I am officially a full-time college gal. I started the fall semester this Wednesday with 16 hrs. I must say, I am very excited and proud of my self. (Just a lil) Some of the classes I am taking are Math, English, Psychology of human, Anatomy & Physiology with A&P lab, Pathophysiology. My path. and psych. classes are online classes so they should be interesting. But lemme tell ya folks, the classes were the least of my expenses! My books alone were close to a thousand bucks! I'm like GEEEEZZZ this science stuff is expensive! But gotta have em.

I think the most thing I am excited about is learning all the new cool stuff, and that this time I will actually apply myself and study. Also looking forward to having an actual foundation of math! I never could really get it or it stick in my brain in high school,or elementary for that matter, and when I went into class the other day I felt like I just may be able to get it this time! Plus my teacher seems like a really nice older man who will help.

Another thing I am looking forward is achieving a degree. When I was younger I never thought I would have the confidence to attend college and was afraid of failing. Partly because of the hard times I have always had with my math classes and then the poor teaching experiences as well. Now that I am older I realize as long as I go to class, study a lot, ask for help, there really is'nt any way I could fail! It all depends on how much I want to succeed, and as far as I'm concerned in my mind there is no other option! I will get through all these classes become a R.N. because it s my dream and long time goal. I cant wait to be able to look back at what I have achieved and know that nothing can or will stop me from achieving what I want! I will never have to worry about a dumb Dr. laying me off, or worry about jobs that have a good income, or worry if I will be able to support myself and have the things and adventures I would like. But the biggest thing I am excited about is being able to have the job I dream of that I LOVE! I am thinking about studying labor and delivery. (Thanks to all my beautiful girlfriends that have allowed me to come in just 30 minutes after they delivered and experience that AWESOME time with them.) or neo-natal, or a child speciality. But who knows, I am also interested in Nuro. But for sure when I decide, I want to be a traveling nurse. Go to other countries and work with kids and work with kids even in the U.S. I mean i'm not gonna limit myself her folks! Once that road is open, the pedal is too the medal! Watch out cause you will have to come and visit me wherever I am! But hey, you will have free room and board in some beautiful place. Oh and of course I am not putting out the possibility of marriage or kids (I have people ask me that all the time when I say what I want to do)I am just setting my goals for me as for today! And what ever cool kid (hottie) comes along that digs me and vice-versa can hop on and join this ride!!! Cause gals......its gonna be a fun one!!!!!

YOU gotta know when to hold'em and know when to fold' em

I'm sorry I have been denying you guys my love! But I have been having the time of my life! So with that being said....I will be staying out here in the big sunny state.  Yes I finally gave in and admitted I am going to move to California and stay.  I mean how could I not???  Beautiful weather (minus the month of June gloom) Tons of stuff to do outdoors for cheap!  Tons of shopping, Mountains to go and board in winter, tons of new, fun friends, and last but not least TONS of hott guys!  

So my plan as of right now is to come back to Tx mid-August to get the rest of my stuff.  I have already got my school stuff taken care of, just need my loans to come in.  Then I will be getting my own lil place somewhere close to Santa Monica.  I will attend Santa Monica College and be going full time.  

I finally decided on just moving here for sure because I figured I could either take the easy route and go back home to lil humble San Angelo and live with the parents till I found a house to rent.  Live a very boring, non-adventurous life for three years. ORRR put on my big girl panties and move here and have the distractions and conquer them while achieving my goals!  Plus be in an awesome envoirment that I love, surf everyday, go on hikes, study at the beach, or whatever!  But just actually live my life!!! Not be in a protected cubby hole.  Basically stepping outside my comfort box once again.  

I truly have realized in the past couple of weeks how much happier I am here.  I don't really know why?  Maybe because I am being visually and mentally stimulated once again.  Who knows, but I love it!  I feel alive and happy and very young again!  Now, that's not to stay that sometimes I am not stressed and get tired of all the changes I am having to deal with, mainly because they are so expensive.  But I know they will all get taken care of and when i get my lil nest egg I will be the happiest lil Texas girl in California!  BTW  my nic name at the res, I wait tables at is Tex.  Go figure!~ 

Bazi! Getcha sum!

Okay fellow friends, I did it!  I am now an official Bazi distributor!  Thanks to Jalyn Smith, she convinced me to attend the meetings with her so I could deter her from any crazy business deal.  But once I heard about the product and the benefits it has for your over all health I was hooked.  Seriously we both were!  When we first took the shots of the "liquid fountain of youth" we just sat there staring at each other...waiting  to see if we felt a surge or if our hearts were beating faster.  But instead we just felt good!  After the meeting we went back to Jalyns and discussed the pros and cons of becoming a distributor, we came up with more pros.  We both wanted and needed to feel better, and wanted to be consuming healthier foods.  We both needed a way to be able to do it cheaper than buying the raw produce to make our shakes daily, which was costing us around $60.00 a wk! It would be GREAT if we could some how get the Bazi paid for, without us spending what lil money we have. Plus we could earn some extra income (which EVERYONE needs in this day and time) and it would not be hard to sell because the product truly sells itself!  We decided we would attend a couple more meetings to get all our questions answered and each meeting we went to we were more convinced with each shot of Bazi we consumed.  We were like junkies at the meetings, trying to figure out how we get out hands on our own FULL bottle, so we could feel good all week long!  To feel calmer, focused, more energy, but with out the jittery feeling. Plus consume 8 super fruits, 12 vitamins, and 68 minerals...all in one shot! It seems really ridiculous, but being able to take in all the vitamins, minerals, fruits really was helping me feel better.  Also, being able to listen to how Bazi was affecting others mentally, physically, and economically was very interesting as well.  Bazi was helping others with PMS, joint pain, anxiety, sleep, energy levels, all sorts of crazy stuff!  Things you would never think of, all because their bodies were getting the vitamins and mineral and foods it needs on a daily basis.  As a bonus they were making extra money as well, just by consuming a product that they believed in because of what it was doing for them.   

Soooo, needless to say we did get our own bottle to try for a week, we felt the results that people were talking about.  We knew we had nothing to lose, except for the opportunity  of missing out.... on the opportunity.  

We both are signed up now to be distributors and we are both feeling the results of (as I like to call it) "the fountain of youth" Bazi.  Since I am now living in San Angelo I am hoping to introduce Bazi to the area of west Texas and beyond, and also make a lil money along the way of better health to help me through nursing school.  So wish me luck and if anyone is interested or you know of anyone interested in a truly amazing product plus some residual income, or if you would just like to hear more information please feel free to contact me!  I would love to share this with you.  ~Shay

My link is www.drinkbazi.shayconwell

Getting back to the basics with Waylon, Willie & the boys...

Its been a while since my last post.  But since then I have made HUGE changes in my life.  For one I have moved back to the small, (or at least smaller than Dallas)dry, slow moving, windy city of San Angelo.  I finally gave in to my ego and decided it was the smartest thing to do if I wanted to go back to school and not go into as much debt.  So here I am living with the ol' parents right now, and my 24 year old brother, who is attending school right now as well.  I have to say its not horrible by any means, just different.  I have gone from a medium size apt. to a small bedroom to hold most of my belongings.  The big stuff and boxes are in the barn, yes the barn. My days consist of all the honey doos pretty much and random lil things to keep me busy.  

Now the things that DRIVE me crazy lately are the radio stations!  I mean to tell ya, they are HORRIBLE!  All of them, country, rock, etc. all of them!  So I truly understand why everyone has satellite.  My goal is to download my music ASAP.  Another kicker is the drivers!  I know I'm used to zipping round Dallas in my mini, but I truly want to scream at these people and say "seriously!?  Have you never driven above the speed of 35?" Plus the lines in the stores or registering for college even, the people are sooooo slow!  Or they have just 2 people checking you out, or even just 3 ladies registering for school.  When they know its going to be the busiest day!

One thing I do have to say is the people watching was superb registering for school the other day!  I mean I was'nt decked out or anything.  Had my usual get-up.....Reefs, longer Abercrombie soft shorts, and my grey panther t-shirt, hair n a pony.  Nothing big.  But GEEZ these people were stuck in a total time warp did not matter what age they were.  I finally asked the cute girl next to me (that I had befriended because we had been in line for 3 freakin hours) if the cool thing in S.A. was getting your septum pierced?  I swear there was like 3 or 4 girls walking by with them.  Thank fully she said no!  

So yes I did get registered finally after 3 long very boring hours.  I will be taking 13 hrs this fall. Starting August 17th.  So wish me luck!  Hopefully my attention span has increased and I will be a better student.   

I also have decided that I will be taking a lil adventure out to California to visit my friend Matt.  He has a condo on Hermosa beach, and said I could stay with him for summer.  So I figured what the heck!  Almost 30 in a few wks. and I wanted or rather needed to do something exciting for it, so I will be hopefully driving out there next week. Should be pretty cool, I mean what could be soooo bad?  Condo on the beach, where your back yard is the BEACH!  Taking Blanca with me so I can have a buddy to run with and play.  Matt works all day then goes to his 2 night clubs that he is opening!Till 1 or 2 in the morning! So it will pretty much be my pad!  Plus he has tons of friends so we can do what ever.  I am also excited because I will be able to go and drive around Cali. and check out some things for my self as well.  Then my girlfriend Michelle lives in San Diego, so I will be visiting her.  Then Matt also said he can get me a free pass to the gym he goes too right by his house and they have spin class, pilates, yoga, heated pool, blah, blah, blah!  I mean to tell ya what more could a girl want!!!  Sun, Beach, free gym, fun, cute room mate.  Maybe being 30 wont be too bad after all!   

Well as they say....if you cant beat em, join em!  So now I have finally got a blog account!

I figured what the heck?  I need some space to vent and I don't know show some pics. of my dogs or something. 

My life as of right now is fairly stressful and very boring!  I got laid off from work about 4 wks. ago now, and it suxs!  I remember waking up in the morning wishing I was off work, and now that I am all I do is think about how I should b at work!  I mean it is nice not having to set the alarm or being able to have an open schedule. Except for one minor detail!  I have NO money to be spending care free and frivolously!  Which means no gym membership, no meeting up with friends to go have HH or going out to eat.  Going to the mall is just torture, not just because I cant buy anything, but because I wonder how people are being able to afford shopping in this economy. So that doesnt leave me with a ton to do except for boring house stuff, and of course trying to get a hold of work contacts.  

So as for now my days are filled with watching the time tick and bills still coming in. But Have to keep a positive attitude and keep on LIVIN!